I have been tracking my calorie intake on http://thedailyplate.com. I find it a little ridiculous though because when I enter my current weight & weight loss goal it tells me I can eat 2000 calories a day & still lose weight. I don't ever eat 2000 calories in a day unless I am REALLY indulging! Anyways on Tuesday I consumed about 1080 calories & burned 351.
I jogged 1.5 miles for my lunch and last night I rode my bike 2.23 miles. I was going to get up this morning and do my Biggest Loser dvd, but I don't want to over exert myself and wear myself out before I even get started, so my goal is to continue with the jogging & riding my bike for the remainder of this week. Build up slowly right?
I have plans to meet up with an old friend from high school this week for lunch and I am greatly looking forward to it! Its been 13 years! Wow, how time flies.
Today I am working on our company Facebook page. Fun, fun! Especially since Facebook has done something stupid and isn't allowing photo uploads. Grrrr! Back to the regular paper pushing for now I guess.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Day 1 -- Monday
Today I started with that determination, focus thing I keep "talking" about, but not doing. I rode the bike 2.2 miles. Took me 15 minutes and I burned 103 calories. Not a huge feat, but a start. I also loaded this nifty little app to my phone that tracks all my workouts, reminds me I need to workout & tracks my progress. Plus while I am working out, it gives me updates. So last night it was telling me how long it was going to take me to do a mile at the pace I was going & it would tell me how far I had gone periodically. All while NOT interupting my music! Awesome! I just need one of those arm band things for my phone so it doesn't get messed up while I exercise.
Today, I am going to walk for my lunch and going to go for my bike ride again tonight. Hopefully the boys will sleep in their room so I can do my workout in the morning also. I have set a goal for myself. Goal 1: Lose 10 lbs by August. Thats about a pound a week. I can do this!!!!
Today, I am going to walk for my lunch and going to go for my bike ride again tonight. Hopefully the boys will sleep in their room so I can do my workout in the morning also. I have set a goal for myself. Goal 1: Lose 10 lbs by August. Thats about a pound a week. I can do this!!!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Finding Determination
So as can obviously be seen, I'm not so great at the continuous blogging thing, but I am going to try to change the mood of this one some. Things aren't where I'd like them to be, but I am in a better place within myself.
I am trying to find determination & motivation to lose some weight. I am still 10 lbs away from pre-Laila weight & would ideally like to lose at least 30 lbs. I know I want to, I know I need to, but for whatever reason it is just so hard for me right now. I set my alarm for 5am, it rings, I wake up, & turn it off. I need to wake up & get up. Tonight I am going to go to bed at 8. Hopefully Laila agrees, and see if the problem is I'm not getting enough sleep.
I have started walking for my lunch with some coworkers which is wonderful. Maybe if I can find someone to get up with me at 5 am and let Jillian Michaels kick both our asses I might be able to get it done!
I am trying to find determination & motivation to lose some weight. I am still 10 lbs away from pre-Laila weight & would ideally like to lose at least 30 lbs. I know I want to, I know I need to, but for whatever reason it is just so hard for me right now. I set my alarm for 5am, it rings, I wake up, & turn it off. I need to wake up & get up. Tonight I am going to go to bed at 8. Hopefully Laila agrees, and see if the problem is I'm not getting enough sleep.
I have started walking for my lunch with some coworkers which is wonderful. Maybe if I can find someone to get up with me at 5 am and let Jillian Michaels kick both our asses I might be able to get it done!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Happiness is in YOUR hands!
I am in a position I never thought I would be in. One I never cared to be, but one I am grateful I am. In the past 3 years I have never once stopped and took a good look at myself. At my choices, my actions, my words. I mean I've read over my words over and over, but I've never really LOOKED at them. Now I have the opportunity to see my words through someone else, to see how badly I handled things, and to learn.
I have learned one crucial thing. The one thing that I think will help me for the rest of my life. MY happiness cannot reside in someone else's hands. I cannot rely on ANYONE else to make me happy. I just have to be happy. Be happy with the things I have in my life. Change what I can if something is making me unhappy, and find the good in what I have if I can't change something. Once I hand my happiness over to someone else, they will destroy it. They will mold it into something THEY think is happiness OR they will abuse & neglect it. Once I hand my happiness over to someone else, THEY control me, I don't control me.
I like who I am, I think I am a good person with a good heart. If someone wants to walk away from me, well I won't be sad anymore. Because I am not making that choice, they are. And if being a part of my life was only meant to be for a short time, or whether it was meant to be for a lifetime, well that is in God's hands. And His hands are the only hands, other than mine, I will ever allow to touch my happiness again!
I have learned one crucial thing. The one thing that I think will help me for the rest of my life. MY happiness cannot reside in someone else's hands. I cannot rely on ANYONE else to make me happy. I just have to be happy. Be happy with the things I have in my life. Change what I can if something is making me unhappy, and find the good in what I have if I can't change something. Once I hand my happiness over to someone else, they will destroy it. They will mold it into something THEY think is happiness OR they will abuse & neglect it. Once I hand my happiness over to someone else, THEY control me, I don't control me.
I like who I am, I think I am a good person with a good heart. If someone wants to walk away from me, well I won't be sad anymore. Because I am not making that choice, they are. And if being a part of my life was only meant to be for a short time, or whether it was meant to be for a lifetime, well that is in God's hands. And His hands are the only hands, other than mine, I will ever allow to touch my happiness again!
Friday, January 30, 2009
Once Again
So I have deleted my myspace. Once again. This is the 3rd page I've deleted in less than two years. I just don't understand how someone who thinks so poorly of me, is so obsessed, that they search and search and hunt until they find the new one I created. Its sad. If I am so horrible, just forget about me. Forget I exist. Forget my name, forget what you think you know about me and go on with your life happy in the fact that you'll never have to really know me, or spend time with me, or truly care about me. Just ranting........
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
5 stages
I suck at this blog thing...it's been what?? 7 months?? Sad!! So much has changed. When I last wrote, I thought I was about to go thru a big change. I ready for it. Scared, but ready. And true to Katrina expectations, everything came crumbling down around my feet. And now, 7 months later, there is nothing more that I want than those changes. It is the air I breathe. It dictates my life. That need to change. It is the second thing I think of every morning when I wake. (1st would be my kids, of course!!) It is the second to last thing I think of before I fall asleep. It defines my days, my moods, and at the moment me.
It is exhausting being defined by a moment in time that you don't know when it will come. Its not like death, which everyone knows will come. It is not something I can KNOW will happen, even if every fiber in my being is willing it to. Faith is a hard thing to come by, when every possible wall is thrown and every possible door is shut, in your face.
The bitterness is gone, the anger. What do they say the 5 stages are?
1. Denial and Isolation.
2. Anger.
3. Bargaining.
4. Depression.
5. Acceptance.
I have done all of these. I am at acceptance. I am at the point where if someone else wants to be miserable in my shoes, well I'll give them to them for free, so long as they promise never to give them back!! I have accepted where my life is, what has become of the love I once had, and where my future lies. What I have not accepted is the inability to reach that future I so long for. That I CANNOT live without. Because if I have to live in these shoes much longer, well.... you may never see me walk again.
It is exhausting being defined by a moment in time that you don't know when it will come. Its not like death, which everyone knows will come. It is not something I can KNOW will happen, even if every fiber in my being is willing it to. Faith is a hard thing to come by, when every possible wall is thrown and every possible door is shut, in your face.
The bitterness is gone, the anger. What do they say the 5 stages are?
1. Denial and Isolation.
2. Anger.
3. Bargaining.
4. Depression.
5. Acceptance.
I have done all of these. I am at acceptance. I am at the point where if someone else wants to be miserable in my shoes, well I'll give them to them for free, so long as they promise never to give them back!! I have accepted where my life is, what has become of the love I once had, and where my future lies. What I have not accepted is the inability to reach that future I so long for. That I CANNOT live without. Because if I have to live in these shoes much longer, well.... you may never see me walk again.
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