I really do!!!

Have all the intentions to keep this blog going! Just with work, the kids, Richard & of course now my exercising, I am having a hard time finding just that; time! The determination is still there, though I have little results to show at the moment. I've lost about 7 lbs, give or take, because my weight seems to fluctuate from day to day. Not that I care so much about "weight" as I do if my clothes fit better, or even more hopeful, get too big! But I guess its all just a work in progress and I can't expect anything more than small steps if I'm doing it healthy and making sure I'm taking care of my health while I try to fit into those size 8's!

I've done fairly well with if I am not able to make it to the gym I will go swimming with the kids, for a run or like last night a walk with Richard. I really enjoyed that little bit of time. Baby steps all the way around, I guess. I'm learning to slow things down in life in general and enjoying the crawl rather than trying to run a marathon, lol. Life right now is doing me well. I don't have everything I need or want, but I am very happy with what I do have and have come to realize that the only family I really and truly need is the family that resides within my home. They make my life the wonderful journey it is.

So sleepy.....

I'm on Day 10? I think of my routine of working out. Day 6 since I joined the gym. I did not go Fri or Sat, but I did go swimming with the kids, so I consider that a workout! And I've gone everyday since Sunday. I like the gym alot & am trying to change things up so I don't get bored. I get there around 6, so I get to watch the news while I'm working out, which I think helps me not pay attention to how long I am going. My energy level is a little down, but once I get going, I'm good. I'm sure its just a matter of time till I'm feeling better physically.

Monday we will be driving up to the mountains to get Nichole from Girl Scout Camp. I'm anxious to enjoy it with the family. Even if its just for the day, we've never really gone up to the mountains to just enjoy it. I am a deprived individual who has never really been camping. Sad, I know.

I joined a Gym!

I have never gone to a traditional gym before, so it is a little intimidating. But I am excited to have the time not only to myself, but to better myself. I can't wait to see results, though I am sure I will be like most and want them instantly, ha ha!

I guess I'll have to start being even more narcissistic than I already am and take some before, during & after pictures, lol. I'm sure that will keep me motivated once I do start seeing change.

Hooray for new beginnings, hard work, and results to come!

Day 3 -- Wednesday

I didn't get my lunch jog in yesterday. Instead I opted to have lunch with my husband. Poor thing had a long, hard day at work. I probably won't get my jog in today either because I believe I may be having lunch with my friend from high school. I did get my bike ride in though. I went 2.48 miles in 15.44 minutes and burned about 200 calories. So at least I wasn't a total blob and didn't do anything, lol.

Today after work I am going to go to the gym, talk to them and most likely get signed up & do my first workout there. I think I finally found determination. Yay! I can't wait to have my body back the way I want it to be :o)

Day 2 -- Tuesday

I have been tracking my calorie intake on http://thedailyplate.com. I find it a little ridiculous though because when I enter my current weight & weight loss goal it tells me I can eat 2000 calories a day & still lose weight. I don't ever eat 2000 calories in a day unless I am REALLY indulging! Anyways on Tuesday I consumed about 1080 calories & burned 351.

I jogged 1.5 miles for my lunch and last night I rode my bike 2.23 miles. I was going to get up this morning and do my Biggest Loser dvd, but I don't want to over exert myself and wear myself out before I even get started, so my goal is to continue with the jogging & riding my bike for the remainder of this week. Build up slowly right?

I have plans to meet up with an old friend from high school this week for lunch and I am greatly looking forward to it! Its been 13 years! Wow, how time flies.

Today I am working on our company Facebook page. Fun, fun! Especially since Facebook has done something stupid and isn't allowing photo uploads. Grrrr! Back to the regular paper pushing for now I guess.

Day 1 -- Monday

Today I started with that determination, focus thing I keep "talking" about, but not doing. I rode the bike 2.2 miles. Took me 15 minutes and I burned 103 calories. Not a huge feat, but a start. I also loaded this nifty little app to my phone that tracks all my workouts, reminds me I need to workout & tracks my progress. Plus while I am working out, it gives me updates. So last night it was telling me how long it was going to take me to do a mile at the pace I was going & it would tell me how far I had gone periodically. All while NOT interupting my music! Awesome! I just need one of those arm band things for my phone so it doesn't get messed up while I exercise.

Today, I am going to walk for my lunch and going to go for my bike ride again tonight. Hopefully the boys will sleep in their room so I can do my workout in the morning also. I have set a goal for myself. Goal 1: Lose 10 lbs by August. Thats about a pound a week. I can do this!!!!

Finding Determination

So as can obviously be seen, I'm not so great at the continuous blogging thing, but I am going to try to change the mood of this one some. Things aren't where I'd like them to be, but I am in a better place within myself.

I am trying to find determination & motivation to lose some weight. I am still 10 lbs away from pre-Laila weight & would ideally like to lose at least 30 lbs. I know I want to, I know I need to, but for whatever reason it is just so hard for me right now. I set my alarm for 5am, it rings, I wake up, & turn it off. I need to wake up & get up. Tonight I am going to go to bed at 8. Hopefully Laila agrees, and see if the problem is I'm not getting enough sleep.

I have started walking for my lunch with some coworkers which is wonderful. Maybe if I can find someone to get up with me at 5 am and let Jillian Michaels kick both our asses I might be able to get it done!

Good Morning World!!!

Its going to be a FABULOUS day!!! Enjoy it!!!

Happiness is in YOUR hands!

I am in a position I never thought I would be in. One I never cared to be, but one I am grateful I am. In the past 3 years I have never once stopped and took a good look at myself. At my choices, my actions, my words. I mean I've read over my words over and over, but I've never really LOOKED at them. Now I have the opportunity to see my words through someone else, to see how badly I handled things, and to learn.

I have learned one crucial thing. The one thing that I think will help me for the rest of my life. MY happiness cannot reside in someone else's hands. I cannot rely on ANYONE else to make me happy. I just have to be happy. Be happy with the things I have in my life. Change what I can if something is making me unhappy, and find the good in what I have if I can't change something. Once I hand my happiness over to someone else, they will destroy it. They will mold it into something THEY think is happiness OR they will abuse & neglect it. Once I hand my happiness over to someone else, THEY control me, I don't control me.

I like who I am, I think I am a good person with a good heart. If someone wants to walk away from me, well I won't be sad anymore. Because I am not making that choice, they are. And if being a part of my life was only meant to be for a short time, or whether it was meant to be for a lifetime, well that is in God's hands. And His hands are the only hands, other than mine, I will ever allow to touch my happiness again!