I joined a Gym!

I have never gone to a traditional gym before, so it is a little intimidating. But I am excited to have the time not only to myself, but to better myself. I can't wait to see results, though I am sure I will be like most and want them instantly, ha ha!

I guess I'll have to start being even more narcissistic than I already am and take some before, during & after pictures, lol. I'm sure that will keep me motivated once I do start seeing change.

Hooray for new beginnings, hard work, and results to come!

Day 3 -- Wednesday

I didn't get my lunch jog in yesterday. Instead I opted to have lunch with my husband. Poor thing had a long, hard day at work. I probably won't get my jog in today either because I believe I may be having lunch with my friend from high school. I did get my bike ride in though. I went 2.48 miles in 15.44 minutes and burned about 200 calories. So at least I wasn't a total blob and didn't do anything, lol.

Today after work I am going to go to the gym, talk to them and most likely get signed up & do my first workout there. I think I finally found determination. Yay! I can't wait to have my body back the way I want it to be :o)

Day 2 -- Tuesday

I have been tracking my calorie intake on http://thedailyplate.com. I find it a little ridiculous though because when I enter my current weight & weight loss goal it tells me I can eat 2000 calories a day & still lose weight. I don't ever eat 2000 calories in a day unless I am REALLY indulging! Anyways on Tuesday I consumed about 1080 calories & burned 351.

I jogged 1.5 miles for my lunch and last night I rode my bike 2.23 miles. I was going to get up this morning and do my Biggest Loser dvd, but I don't want to over exert myself and wear myself out before I even get started, so my goal is to continue with the jogging & riding my bike for the remainder of this week. Build up slowly right?

I have plans to meet up with an old friend from high school this week for lunch and I am greatly looking forward to it! Its been 13 years! Wow, how time flies.

Today I am working on our company Facebook page. Fun, fun! Especially since Facebook has done something stupid and isn't allowing photo uploads. Grrrr! Back to the regular paper pushing for now I guess.

Day 1 -- Monday

Today I started with that determination, focus thing I keep "talking" about, but not doing. I rode the bike 2.2 miles. Took me 15 minutes and I burned 103 calories. Not a huge feat, but a start. I also loaded this nifty little app to my phone that tracks all my workouts, reminds me I need to workout & tracks my progress. Plus while I am working out, it gives me updates. So last night it was telling me how long it was going to take me to do a mile at the pace I was going & it would tell me how far I had gone periodically. All while NOT interupting my music! Awesome! I just need one of those arm band things for my phone so it doesn't get messed up while I exercise.

Today, I am going to walk for my lunch and going to go for my bike ride again tonight. Hopefully the boys will sleep in their room so I can do my workout in the morning also. I have set a goal for myself. Goal 1: Lose 10 lbs by August. Thats about a pound a week. I can do this!!!!

Finding Determination

So as can obviously be seen, I'm not so great at the continuous blogging thing, but I am going to try to change the mood of this one some. Things aren't where I'd like them to be, but I am in a better place within myself.

I am trying to find determination & motivation to lose some weight. I am still 10 lbs away from pre-Laila weight & would ideally like to lose at least 30 lbs. I know I want to, I know I need to, but for whatever reason it is just so hard for me right now. I set my alarm for 5am, it rings, I wake up, & turn it off. I need to wake up & get up. Tonight I am going to go to bed at 8. Hopefully Laila agrees, and see if the problem is I'm not getting enough sleep.

I have started walking for my lunch with some coworkers which is wonderful. Maybe if I can find someone to get up with me at 5 am and let Jillian Michaels kick both our asses I might be able to get it done!

Good Morning World!!!

Its going to be a FABULOUS day!!! Enjoy it!!!

Happiness is in YOUR hands!

I am in a position I never thought I would be in. One I never cared to be, but one I am grateful I am. In the past 3 years I have never once stopped and took a good look at myself. At my choices, my actions, my words. I mean I've read over my words over and over, but I've never really LOOKED at them. Now I have the opportunity to see my words through someone else, to see how badly I handled things, and to learn.

I have learned one crucial thing. The one thing that I think will help me for the rest of my life. MY happiness cannot reside in someone else's hands. I cannot rely on ANYONE else to make me happy. I just have to be happy. Be happy with the things I have in my life. Change what I can if something is making me unhappy, and find the good in what I have if I can't change something. Once I hand my happiness over to someone else, they will destroy it. They will mold it into something THEY think is happiness OR they will abuse & neglect it. Once I hand my happiness over to someone else, THEY control me, I don't control me.

I like who I am, I think I am a good person with a good heart. If someone wants to walk away from me, well I won't be sad anymore. Because I am not making that choice, they are. And if being a part of my life was only meant to be for a short time, or whether it was meant to be for a lifetime, well that is in God's hands. And His hands are the only hands, other than mine, I will ever allow to touch my happiness again!